It's amazing to me to sit back and see how the Lord works. Not that long ago I couldn't even see or hear the Lord and now I feel closer to Him than I ever have. I am so blessed. Don't get me wrong, I do not have a relationship now with my Heavenly Father because He has blessed me. Oh No! I am blessed because of the relationship I have with my Father. Some people might look at my situation in life and feel sad at where I am. But not me! I am overwhelmingly blessed by God's grace and love and compassion for me.
The wedding is coming up in less than five months and it is starting to feel real. Everything is starting to come together now. Every once in a while I feel overwhelmed, but God reminds me how in control He is and I feel peace again. I am taking a few months off of wedding planning, (I know time is ticking) to get my bills in order. How fair is it for me to be joined to my husband with loads of baggage for him to take care of. I am starting to figure this whole financial thing out. I read in a book somewhere that "You have to live like no one else so you can some day live like no one else." Though I am choosing not to live this to the extreme as he suggests, I am choosing to be wise and live by my needs only so once we get married, we can live a new start.
That being said, I am taking two months off of wedding and spending of any kind to get up on my rent and pay some past bills before even considering putting money toward anything else. The best part is, I can see God blessing me in this decision. Two weeks now and I swore would have enough to the penny to pay my bills and nothing else. I had even forgotten to include my current bills and gas and supplies for work. Well I got to the end of my weeks and not only had God provided to pay my bills, but he provided $75 more to take care of other necessities that had slipped my mind.
I started this next week off thinking a little off. My thought became more that I could spend a little here and there because I know God will provide, but then I realized how unwise that was. God blessed me with more than I needed because I was faithful and smart. Why should He bless me for spending before I have what I need taken care of?
Once I realized this, God blessed my fiance with a larger paycheck than he was expecting. He reassured me that he would be there if I needed help and has taken care of food expenses until our food expenses actually come in next week.
It simply amazes me to see how quickly and wonderfully our Father works. We are so blessed to be called His children.
Thank you Father for teaching me to be patient, to be wise with what you have blessed me, and for engulfing me in your never ending Love!
